I'm only on Week 2, Day 2 in Live Second but already I'm being pushed.
Today's bible passage is Genesis 15:1-3. In the passage, Abraham questions God about his promise to make Abraham a great nation. At this point, Abraham is still without a son and he believes that his trusted servant will be his heir. I completely understand Abraham's impatience. Too many times to count, I have requested an answer and then complained when it didn't come quick enough. I'm not sure that I am brave enough to actually question God about the delay like Abraham. Who am I to question God's timing?
The problem with holding back is that God already knows my thoughts. I'm lying to God when I stew about questions that I have but am not willing to talk to God. I would be annoyed if my husband stewed about something instead of talking to me--why do I do it to God? There has to be a difference between ungratefulness/pride and honesty.
Reading on, here comes the challenge.
"Talk with God
God, this is what is going on in my life and this is what I need..."
Try answering that question honestly. First I have to be honest with myself and then I need to be brave enough to speak the truth.
What's going on? I'm still super busy and haven't found a balance between work and family. I am sold-out to missions work but I don't know how to incorporate that into our lives without sacrificing other responsibilities. I'm tired--in just about every way.
What do I need? To get some projects done to feel relief. Sleep (seriously). To force myself to start exercising again. And that's just the beginning.
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